I honestly laughed out loud when I read this quote from C.S. Lewis, author of such classics as "The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe" - all the Narnia books,etc, you get the picture. Anyway, he said:
"We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be."
I have found myself taking God to task on this very thing over the last several years as I helped my parents battle through illness after illness, and dealt with my father's eventual death and my mom's widowhood; helped my brother and his family survive a very premature born child (she was born at 22 weeks and is a beautiful 3 years old now!) own and try to run and try to grow a family business, help my husband survive being let go of the main bread winning job in the household and not crash financially, and finally take on a full time job myself in addition to our business and keeping our own household running and raising my children!
Honestly, God, I'm tired...
So, really, when I tell myself God knows what He is doing....I honestly have to double check with Him sometimes.
"Are you sure, Lord? I mean, you know how very weak I am...could we just review what this lesson was supposed to be about, cause....I'm just not getting it."
I love to read and have read hundreds of stories about people in situations like mine and they get to the end, look back and realize how much God's hand was guiding them to an certain end or enlightening moment. Then they sit down at their computer and write a story about it or blog or stand up in front of a church group and talk about it.
I'm looking back...I still don't get it. And you know what? I'm really scared that means I'm not finished with it yet...you mean there's still more lesson, Lord?
Just how strong do you think I am?
Because I'm NOT THAT STRONG!!!
You may know something I don't, but couldn't you just give me a little hint???
Let me know if I'm on track?
In any case, I'll keep moving forward, I mean,what else are you going to do?
I do trust the Lord...and I DON"T doubt His intentions....
He's pulled us through some mighty tough times and if I could get the lesson done with I could sit down and write about those times too. But the lesson doesn't seem to be finished...I don't have time to sit down and write about it...or do I?
Is the lesson about moving forward while living the lesson? ...hmmmm...
Okay Lord, I still don't get it.
Is that your point?
That Trusting thing...it's not about seeing the answer ourselves is it?
Rats, I thought I had Him on this one.
Okay, thanks, Lord! Love ya!